Baby Tucker

SPECIAL THANK YOU TO ELAINE, SHARON, JULIE AND MARIE X X X Always thinking of others and to let you
know it means the world 2 me and my angels x x x

Those we love don't go away,
They walk beside us every day,
Unseen, unheard, but always near,
Still loved, still missed and very dear.

I was very shocked (but happy) when I found out I was pregnant with you as I had only be with your
father for a few months, (not the best decision of my life) and I was only 19, unfortunately baby he
wasn't the nicest of people and when I found out I was pregnant with you he had been arrested
and was on remand in prison so I was alone which looking back now far better off!! I carried you
safely until 13 weeks and on the New Years Day, 1st January 1999 at 12.05 am you was taken to a far
better place. I remember what happened like it was yesterday, I had had pains on the New Years Eve
and was bleeding lightly my GP advised bed rest which is what I done but as the day wore on the pain
got far worse. Nanny drove me to hospital and we left home at 11.55 on new years eve and arrived at
hospital at 12.05, due to the pain I was in and the major blood lose I was admitted to hospital and
given a dose of pethedine and then spent the next four days there. I did stay with your father for
the next two years and we ended up living together for a year of that, but he took me to hell and
back during that time and he doesn't deserve to be known as your daddy!!

I do think that you are probably in a better place than the life I would have been able to offer you
at that time and I know that you would have been given golden wings, but it doesn't stop me
hurting and missing you x x x x x x x

You have since had a half sister, Jessica and a half brother Kieran and sadly another angel join
you (baby frankie cook), both keep each other company and warm and watch over mummy and Ill blow
kisses to you both.

I will always love you baby x x x x and never ever forget you x x x x x
I keep you in my heart always till the day we can be together x x x x


O precious, tiny, sweet little one
You will always be to me.
So perfect, pure, and innocent
Just as you were meant to be.
We dreamed of you and of your life
And all that it would be.
We waited and longed for you to come.
And join our family.
We never had the chance to play,
To laugh, to rock, to wiggle.
We long to hold you, touch you now
And listen to you giggle.
I'll always be your mother,
He'll always be your dad.
You will always be our child,
The child that we had.
But now you're gone...but yet you're here
We'll sense you everywhere.
You are our sorrow and our joy,
There's love in every tear.
Just know our love goes deep and strong
We'll forget you never--
The child we had, but never had
And yet will have forever!

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We are connected,
My child and I,
by An invisible cord
Not seen by the eye.

It's not like the cord
That connects us 'til birth
This cord can't been seen
By any on Earth

This cord does it's work
Right from the start.
It binds us together
Attached to my heart.

I know that it's there
Though no one can see
The invisible cord
From my child to me.

The strength of this cord
Is hard to describe.
It can't be destroyed
It can't be denied.

It's stronger than any cord
Man could create
It withstands the test
Can hold any weight.

And though you are gone,
Though you're not here with me,
The cord is still there
But no one can see.

It pulls at my heart
I am bruised...
I am sore
But this cord is my lifeline
As never before.

I am thankful that God
Connects us this way
A mother and child
Death can't take it away